As I write this, it was over 10 years ago that I heard the word DayBreak. It was a word breathed in my spirit. At that moment, I had no idea what it meant. I searched the scriptures and lo and behold, I landed on Psalm 46:5, "God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at the break of day." I was stunned. Right there in plain letters was what God spoke to me. I then began seeking God for clarity. What are you saying, Lord? Those five words were on repeat in my heart. That's when He started speaking to me about women; but, I still didn't know what DayBreak was. So I began to write, but then I stopped. I stopped because I needed to hear from the Lord. A few years later, it became clear that DayBreak was a ministry for women called to lead. But when should I start? How should I start? What would I do? I repeatedly asked those questions. He kept feeding me; I kept writing, rewriting, and revisiting. But there was a problem. Before I could start DayBreak, I had to become a DayBreak woman.
Are you laughing with me?
How could I motivate and inspire women to step into the fullness of who God created them to be? How could I tell my sisters that God had called them for such a time as this? I was stagnating, standing still for reasons of fear and insecurity. Here's why.
I had started my Ph.D. program, finished the courses, successfully passed my comprehensive exams on the first try, but I couldn't move on to the next step. I couldn't defend my proposal. Every time I started to write, I would stop. I became my worst enemy. I rehearsed thoughts of inferiority, insecurity, and fear. My dissertation became a mountain I refused to scale. My health deteriorated, my heart was broken repeatedly, depression overwhelmed me, the woes of singleness bewildered me, and I was stuck. Interestingly though, I did everything else. I went to work, moved forward in ministry, but I forgot about me. I forgot about my dreams. Everyone else's became more important. I forgot what God told me to do. He told me to finish school. He told me to write. He told me to walk in my purpose. I forgot. Better yet, I was disobedient.
In response to my pleas for help, something amazing began to happen. Between 2015 and 2016, the Lord started surrounding me with some inspiring women. These were women of purpose. They were mothers, some were wives, some were students, but they were doing it. They were living out their dreams. They disciplined themselves and made sacrifices. Miraculously, their drive began to infuse me, and I saw my excuses in a new light. Those excuses were simply stones that I had to kick out of my way. I realized that I hadn't seen the fulfillment of dreams because I wasn't doing anything about it. So I put on my combat boots and began kicking. Remember, before I could start DayBreak I had to finish school. So with tears flowing and fear subsiding, I told God I'm going to do everything He called me to do, but I asked Him to help me. And that He did. I settled my mind, took the first step, and the Lord instructed me on how to finish my dissertation. I started my day early and ended it late. His grace kept and sustained me. I'm in seminary now with a 4.0 GPA, and He's helping me. I'm starting daybreak finally, and He's showing me. I'm living out my dream of working as an Administrator and teaching undergrads how to do the same.
I became a DayBreak Woman when I decided to move forward; when I decided that enough was enough.
I was finally tired of settling.
However, the journey is not over. It's just beginning. I desire to help other women get unstuck and to provide them with the tools and resources needed to move forward. As we embark on this journey, you'll hear more of my story and you'll hear the stories of other women.
Let their stories infuse you and move you forward.
I'm inviting you to join me and other mountain scaling, stone kicking women. Remember Psalm 45... The Lord promises to help you at your breaking point; He promises to be in your midst. Are you ready to take Him up on His promise?
Become a DayBreak Woman today!